Have you ever tried so hard to be “good” with your diet that you end up being “bad”?
I had one of those times this weekend…
My Dad wanted to take us to Costco. Do we have a Costco card? Nope. This was strictly a visual tour.
So, after hours of wandering around a ginormous, draughty warehouse looking at food that we couldn’t buy (what’s up with that, anyway?) I was STARVING and frankly, embarrassingly ill prepared for what happened next…
I knew that I needed to eat, but (queue horrified gasp) I had forgotten my very own golden rule… that’s right, I’d left the house WITHOUT a backup food supply.
So here I was, stuck between a supersized slice of chocolate lemon cheesecake and a gooey choc chunk muffin wondering what to do.
I was definitely in the danger zone. I’d let myself get waaaay past hungry. And then I saw them… like a saucy red temptress from the fiery pits below they stood before me… a wall of KitKat’s (yes, my greatest weakness) and before I knew it, I was clutching at packets of KitKat’s as if my life depended on it and scurrying away to the checkout like a deviate holding my shameful stash.
After some smooth talk with the sales assistant, I was able to purchase my sweet, chocolate temptress and, without further ado, I flew into an eating frenzy.
Chocolate wrappers went flying through the air like tiny red trapeze artists as I devoured my sweet afternoon “lunch” and yet, something in me was begging for my attention.
So I stopped. And I took a (mental) step back. Was THIS who I was? Some crazed chocoholic who uses my lack of organizational skills as an excuse to visit the old chocolate coated neighbourhood?
No. That’s who I USED to be. But that’s not who I am now.
Carefully I placed the remaining chocolate back in its wrapper and set it aside.
I would NOT give in to shame.
I would NOT listen to The Voice in my head that told me “Well, you messed that up good and proper, fool. You might as well binge on cake and ice cream now!”
I wasn’t going to do it.
Because one small trip does not have to become a huge-ass fall.
This is REAL LIFE and STUFF HAPPENS.
In life. At work. And DEFINITELY with food.
Sure, everything matters… but what matters most is knowing that you’re ok. KitKat frenzy and all. YOU’RE OK.
You don’t have to get it perfect.
You only have to do the best you can given the circumstances you’re in.
And I did.
So today, decide who you want to be.
Decide what you stand for and what you truly believe is possible for you and then… go out and make it happen.
And remember, it’s okay to make mistakes.
It’s okay to stumble.
Because you can’t mess up at being you.
Sending you all big love.
Here’s to Ditching the Diet!
Does this resonate with you? Let me know in the comments below, baby!