you cant mess up at being you kylie pax


Have you ever tried so hard to be “good” with your diet that you end up being “bad”?





I had one of those times this weekend…


My Dad wanted to take us to Costco. Do we have a Costco card? Nope. This was strictly a visual tour.


So, after hours of wandering around a ginormous, draughty warehouse looking at food that we couldn’t buy (what’s up with that, anyway?) I was STARVING and frankly, embarrassingly ill prepared for what happened next…


I knew that I needed to eat, but (queue horrified gasp) I had forgotten my very own golden rule… that’s right, I’d left the house WITHOUT a backup food supply.



So here I was, stuck between a supersized slice of chocolate lemon cheesecake and a gooey choc chunk muffin wondering what to do.



I was definitely in the danger zone. I’d let myself get waaaay past hungry. And then I saw them… like a saucy red temptress from the fiery pits below they stood before me… a wall of KitKat’s (yes, my greatest weakness) and before I knew it, I was clutching at packets of KitKat’s as if my life depended on it and scurrying away to the checkout like a deviate holding my shameful stash.


After some smooth talk with the sales assistant, I was able to purchase my sweet, chocolate temptress and, without further ado, I flew into an eating frenzy.


Chocolate wrappers went flying through the air like tiny red trapeze artists as I devoured my sweet afternoon “lunch” and yet, something in me was begging for my attention.


So I stopped. And I took a (mental) step back. Was THIS who I was? Some crazed chocoholic who uses my lack of organizational skills as an excuse to visit the old chocolate coated neighbourhood?



No. That’s who I USED to be. But that’s not who I am now.



Carefully I placed the remaining chocolate back in its wrapper and set it aside.


I would NOT give in to shame.


I would NOT listen to The Voice in my head that told me “Well, you messed that up good and proper, fool. You might as well binge on cake and ice cream now!”




I wasn’t going to do it.




Because one small trip does not have to become a huge-ass fall.




In life. At work. And DEFINITELY with food.


Sure, everything matters… but what matters most is knowing that you’re ok. KitKat frenzy and all.  YOU’RE OK.


You don’t have to get it perfect.


You only have to do the best you can given the circumstances you’re in.


And I did.


So today, decide who you want to be.

Decide what you stand for and what you truly believe is possible for you and then… go out and make it happen.


And remember, it’s okay to make mistakes.


It’s okay to stumble.




Because you can’t mess up at being you.


Sending you all big love.


Here’s to Ditching the Diet!

kylie pax






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  1. Oh Kylie!! Thank you sooo very much for sharing this. I have such love and respect for you! This journey is a journey of a lifetime and you’ve taught me that learning to love yourself comes with “teachable” moments of imperfection, as well as sweet, beautiful moments of utter victory. Thank you my friend. Progress Not Perfection!!

    Love you,
    Darlee 🙂

    1. Beautiful girl, thank you so much for your words!
      And I’m so glad you found my little trip into Chocolate-ville helpful 😉 because this is REAL LIFE and it’s not always about organic goji berries and cacao nibs… SOMETIMES it’s about store bought chocolate and soft drink, and that’s exactly how it’s supposed to be.
      Sending you love 😀

  2. Yikes, did this actually happen!??!?! Thank you so so much for sharing Kylie. Its really comforting to know that everyone has ‘moments’, its not just me! That its not going to be perfect 100% of the time and when its not, its NOT an excuse to go crazy, but a time to regroup and focus on what kind of person I am and what kind of person I want to be! xxx

    1. Haha! Yup Buffy, #truestory 😉
      Thank you so much, beautiful! I’m all about keeping it real and pretending that this is a perfect journey is just fairy tale stuff.
      Love your comment so much!

  3. Thank you SO much for sharing this story! Thank you for showing us that it is possible to give in to the temptation, but pull yourself out of it before it goes to far. And, for reminding me that this journey is a constant… No finish line aye 🙂 You are an amazing teacher. xxxxx

  4. Oh dear sweet sweet kylie. This reminded me or my extended ordeal and I love you so much for sharing this. The fact that you’re the expert and yet you still go through “bad” days makes it all the more believe able that one day we too shall get there. You’re amazing truly. Such an inspiration. You always teach us to pick ourselves up and to treat ourselves with kindness. And I love that you practice what you preach. Much love! #perfecttiming #justwhenineededareminder

    1. Farha thank you so much, lovely!
      Haha! Yes, it certainly was a sight to behold! But it was also such a great reminder of our humanity and the fact that sometimes, life just happens and it’s perfectly fine.
      😀 xx

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